“Do Not Be Afraid”

July 17, 2008 at 3:02 pm (Musings..., Scripture References)

“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.  Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”  Deuteronomy 31:8

“You hem me in — behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.  …even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.” Psalm 139:5,10

I have spent much of my 48 year old life afraid of failing, afraid of what people think of me, afraid of taking risks, afraid of making wrong decisions.  I was just an ol’ scaredy-cat!!  Fear influenced many of my choices.   Since I’ve been on a renewed path of self-discovery and spiritual growth in the past 18 months or so, I am learning to be bold and to go where I’ve never gone before!!  Two phrases have become my mantra. 

If not now, when??

If not me, who??

I have also spent the last 18 months remembering Bible verses I memorized as a child (I know many more verses than I realized!) — I spent my 30’s hardly opening my Bible.  I’m ashamed to say, many of the pages stuck together!!  NO MORE!!!  God, in his grace and mercy never let me go and his love re-captured my heart!!  …I digress…

As I have dealt with my fear — and sometimes I still don’t deal well — the Lord has impressed upon me that, if I am truly in His will — even if I can’t see the path clearly, He is there with me!!  I can make decisions without fear, often going with my “gut instinct,” which we know is the Holy Spirit’s guidance.  As long as I’m pointed in the right direction, it is okay if I take a few steps backwards…  I am only human!! 

I couldn’t see the the tapestry of my life for many, many years.  It wasn’t a whole picture, just pieces of victory, failure, sadness, joy, and all that life brings.  It is only now as I look back as a 48 year old, I can see more fully.

I see GOD’S hand on my life when I was walking with him, HIS protection when I strayed from him, and HIS mercy that drew me back to him!!! 



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