Closing A Chapter

May 21, 2009 at 7:06 am (Musings...)

Our lives are filled with chapters that, if all remained open, would create chaos.  That is why chapters close.  Last night I closed a wonderful chapter in my life.  I have been accompanying Paul Seymour’s choir for the past 13 years — at times the job has included both elementary school choruses and 6th grade and 7th/8th grade choruses.  These kids have touched my life — and I will miss them.

My MS has been progressing to the point where it is difficult and detrimental for me to continue to play so in February I made the hard decision that this would be my last year.  The kids were tremendous and sang beautifully — all 230 of them!!  Paul, Tom and Michele had a moment of thanks for the work I had done — I squalled!!  I am thankful for Paul, who took a chance on a mom who played the piano all those years ago.  I am ending well!

All 230 of them!!

All 230 of them!!

my daughter, Amanda, me, Paul Seymour and his daughter, Devon

my daughter, Amanda, me, Paul Seymour and his daughter, Devon

Josh, Mariah, me and Amanda

Josh, Mariah, me and Amanda

My darling daughter drove from Burke, VA for the evening!

My darling daughter drove from Burke, VA for the evening!

A new chapter is beginning (after this evening’s middle school concert) and I can’t wait to see what happens!!

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29 Years!!

May 17, 2009 at 12:03 pm (Musings...)

Yesterday, Danny O and I celebrated our 29th wedding anniversary.  He was in Michigan for his late-brother’s benefit golf outing and I was facilitating worship at a woman’s conference at EBC.  We have gotten to the point where the actual celebrating isn’t important.  We are careful to tell each other how much we love each other every day.  I am so fortunate to have been blessed with a man who loves the Lord, loves me, and his children.  Danny and I met at a wedding in November 1979.  I sang and he was the best man.  We got married in May of 1980.  Our lives have been full of joy and sorrow but we are moving forward together 🙂

Then…

May 16, 1980 -- Dan, me, Debbie (back) Heather, Esther, Susan

May 16, 1980 -- Dan, me, Debbie (back) Heather, Esther, Susan

 

Now…

December 25, 2008

December 25, 2008

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Happy Mother’s Day to Me

May 11, 2009 at 12:16 pm (Musings...)

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I love my darling children, Amanda and Brent.  As of Friday, I am an “empty-nest” mom.  I squalled through Friday and half of Saturday.  It didn’t help when, while I was buying my mom a gift of chocolate for Mother’s Day, I came across this saying. “Mothers are angels who lift us up when we forget how to fly.”  

I started to squall right in Mid’s until a clerk approached me and asked if I was okay!!

Danny O took me to lunch.  Both kids gave me sweet cards… Amanda gave me an i-Tunes gift card — which I promptly used to download a Guns and Roses song 🙂

I am learning that in parenting there are few “do-overs.”  I can choose to be filled with regret and paralyzed or I can thank God for His grace and mercy — and let God use me in this new chapter of my life.  Amanda and Brent are young adults and I must step back and let both of them move foward. 

{{Gulp!}} Okay… big step back…

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I Drybrushed a Hole in the Cheek of My Sun

May 9, 2009 at 8:43 am (Decorative Painting)

Module A, Lesson 9

Module A, Lesson 9

“Dry-brushing” is something that I have struggled with as I learn to be a decorative artist.  I always seem to take too much paint off of the brush, press too hard… then a hole appears.  Paul actually got a text one day at school that said, “I dry-brushed a hole in the cheek of my sun.”  The scary thing is, he knew exactly what I was talking about!!

I also think part of my problem is that I am not a patient painter.  I want instant results — dry-brushing requires layers and patience! 🙂

Happy Spring!

Happy Spring!

I have dry-brushed with mixed results for the past 2 1/2 years.  I had an “aha” moment a few weeks ago as we were painting Paul’s Apple A Day design (pictures to follow when completed).  I was actually off-dressing too much paint then pressing WAY too hard.  I worked to adjust my technique and was very pleased with the results!!  I can’t wait to share that painting with you!

I am officially an “empty-nester!”  My friend, Danielle recommended a book to me…  “Barbara & Susan’s Guide to the Empty Nest: Discovering New Purpose, Passion & Your Next Great Adventure.”  

I am going to read it with great interest 🙂

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My Gifts

May 2, 2009 at 10:27 am (Musings...)

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Both of my children are moving this month.  Amanda, who is 27, moved yesterday to a condo with her friend, Sarah, in Burke, Virginia.  She has been away from home for a few years, but Brent, 23, is moving on Friday to North Carolina with his friend, Todd.  They are going to be trainers for high school sports teams in the Lake Norman area. 

This is a very bittersweet time for me.  One one hand, I am absolutely ready to be alone with my darling hubby of almost 29 years, Danny O.  On the other, the years went by so quickly that I wish I had more time with them.  Memories have been moving through my mind like old movie reels.  Events, long forgotten, are remembered once more.

Parenting isn’t easy.  I did some things really well and other things very badly.  I KNOW I was sometimes too hard on Amanda and Brent; my expectations were unrealistic.  However, I KNOW I was always there for them.  I wish I could have a few “do-overs” 🙂

Letting go ~~ of treasures you’ve poured your heart and soul into ~~ is nearly impossible.  I am essentially finished parenting.   I’ve spent most of my adult life emersed in theirs but now I must move on.  My head knows these facts, but my heart is still in denial. 

My darling children were borrowed Gifts from God.  I am returning them to His capable hands now with much love and a bit of sorrow.  

Blessings to you, my darling children.  

May the Lord bless you and keep you.
May He cause His face to shine upon you.
May He lift up His countenance and grant you peace.

Amanda, May you be as Sarah, Rebekah, Rachel and Leah.
May the Lord with you ever be.
May He bring you home unto the land prepared for thee.

Brent, May you be as Ephraim and Manassah.
May the Lord with you ever be.
May He bring you home unto the land prepared for thee.

May the Lord protect and defend you.
May His Spirit fill you with grace.
May our family grow in happiness,
O Lord, hear my prayer.

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