Beauty For Ashes

April 12, 2010 at 1:09 am (Musings...)

I had a particularly rough week last week.  Healing isn’t going according to MY timetable.  My multiple sclerosis is acting up.  I had a yeast infection.   On top of that, I had a personal situation occur that paralyzed me for about three days.  When I get paralyzed, I can’t function beyond my normal, need-to activities.  I can’t create.  I can’t sleep.   All of those situations together proved to be too much for me.   I limped through Saturday, catching sleep where I could, just marginally functioning so that my hubby didn’t realize I had completely lost my mind!

On Saturday, my friend Juel drove me to hear Amanda sing a song that was part of a celebration of the music of Samuel Roberts.  The celebration was called, “The Reaping.”   There was singing, dancing, prophesying, praying, reading scripture.  I have no pictures to document our time at the Baptist Church, but the Word of the Lord spoke to me there. 

“And provide for those who grieve in Zion — to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.  They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.”  Isaiah 61:3

I have been grieving, despairing; while desperately praying that the Lord would deliver me from this personal hell (OCD at its finest, can be hell on earth.).   These specific promises were made to the Children of Israel, but I claimed all of them on Saturday…  Beauty for ashes ~~ Oil of gladness for mourning ~~ garment of praise for spirit of despair ~~

Three promises.  Of the three, I must actively participate in the last two ~~ trading mourning for gladness and choosing to praise instead of despair.  The first promise, I believe, comes out of my obedience of the last two.  Beauty for Ashes ~~ What a promise, what a blessing!  When I am obedient, I will be like a tree of righteousness ~~ a planting of the Lord for the display of HIS splendor. 

That is who I want to be… a representation of the Lord’s splendor because of his grace and mercy.

I am going to work through this week, meditating on this verse and gleaning all that I am able to glean from these words.  May this verse bring you comfort and hope today!


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Behaving My Way Through…

April 6, 2010 at 12:35 pm (Decorative Painting, Jewelry, MVD, Scripture References)

Coral bracelet ~~ my design

How is one supposed to be feeling three weeks removed from MVD surgery?  Is it okay to still need pain medicine as the nerves in my head come alive again and my ear feels like it is infected?  Is it okay to need lots and lots (and still more) of sleep?  My hair hurts at the roots.  Is this normal?  Why do I seem to have concentration issues? 

The good news is I am now able to wash my hair and I feel human again!  I showered, dressed, put make-up on in preparation to attend Easter Services on Sunday and was too exhausted to go, but I looked great!!!

It is very interesting that my devotion today focused on Psalm 119:71-74

“It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees.  The law from your mouth is more precious to me than thousands of pieces of silver and gold.  Your hands made me and formed me; give me understanding to learn your commands.  May those who fear you rejoice when they see me, for I have put my hope in your word.” 

I must always, in all circumstances, remember that God made me and all the junk that goes along with being “me.”   I want to be salt and light ~~ I can’t do that if I stay in bed all day!! 

To be honest, for me, the risk is that I stop doing, stop living life, just stop fighting.  I must behave my way through this day… which to me means:  to get up with darling DannyO, even if I need to lie down when he goes to work; read my Bible and pray; take a shower, think about supper, figure out my next painting project, my next jewelry project.  Those are the concrete steps I must take to behave my way through this unfamiliar journey.

What steps do you need to take to behave your way through a particularly hard situation?  I would encourage you to figure it out, even write it down if you must!  (Lists are my friend!)

Blessings to all who read this today!!

New England Sampler 3-2010

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