Yikes! I’ve been away for Awhile

June 27, 2012 at 10:26 am (Jewelry, Multiple Sclerosis, Trigeminal Neuralgia)

Hello, blogger friends.

I am in a hole — somewhat physical with a little mental thrown into it.   I am fragile right now, and feel like a small wind is all it will take to blow me over.

I am having an MS exacerbation.  My legs do not work 90% of the time, i.e. I drag my right foot and fall if I walk without the aid of a cane.  The left side of my face has drooped, i.e. my left eye is noticeably smaller than my right eye.  I also have vertigo, i.e., I throw up if my world spins without provocation — and it does.

My trigeminal neuralgia is also aggravating — pain that cannot be stopped with even the strongest of meds.

And… I believe I am suffering from something called Hyperhidrosis.  I have to get some more information from my doctors, but my symptoms are these to the T.  At home I carry around a towel to mop myself up.  I am not comfortable in public because the sweats come without warning.  I soak my clothes.  I am embarrassed.

So… I’ve become a temporary hermit.  I like being a hermit.  I love to be in my house, in my happy places, my sewing room, my dining room, surrounded by the things that I love.  I also recognize that this cannot be a permanent solution.

Last night I was watching “What Not To Wear.”  They were dressing a young woman who wore leg braces or was in a wheel chair.  Stacy and Clinton’s honest advice to this beautiful girl was that, while she was trying to blend in, because she used a wheel chair and/or braces, she couldn’t blend.  So, she might as well look her best at all times.  That spoke to me.  I must love myself enough to take care of ME — damn the torpedoes as it were — and press forward.

So… today I must venture to the mall — to AAA to transfer a car title with my darling DannyO.  I am going to put on some make up and head out, even for a few moments before I retreat to my safe place.

I came up with this design for a bracelet

I’ve been attempting to create while working through my physical issues.  I feel like I’m in a drought, but I’ve re-purposed some old jewelry into some beautiful new pieces.

To remind myself to always have joy.

I think these are my favorite repurposed bracelets of this group

Summer Sunshine

I do have hope.  A friend shared with me a few verses of Scripture from Psalms…  “Whom have I in heaven but you?  And earth has nothing I desire besides you.   My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”  Psalms 73:25,26

I will crawl out, but right now I am going to stay in a bit longer and evaluate, heal and grow.


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