Three Subjects, Starting with Tuesday-Shoesday

May 20, 2014 at 3:13 pm (Jewelry, Musings..., Shoes, Social Anxiety, Trigeminal Neuralgia)

Subject #1

“Life is not waiting for the storm to pass.  It’s about learning to dance in the rain!!” I know this statement is figurative, but it can be taken literally too!  In the middle of March, it was raining buckets.  I had a neurologist appointment in Altoona.  Of course, it figures, all of the handicapped spots were taken!!  Now, I am not pointing fingers at anyone, but I do know that when it rains, anyone who has a placard, even though they don’t need it on that particular day, is more likely than not to use the HP. I needed my rollater.  It is nearly impossible to manage a rollator AND an umbrella.  I parked WAAAAAYYYY far away from the entrance.  By the time my feet, in slow speed, made it to the entrance, I was soaked through to my undies!!  {{Sigh}}

It was at that point that I decided to buy a pair of rain boots.  I already have a pretty rain-resistant coat.  Since I am not going fishing, just getting from point A to point B, it will suffice.  It is pink.  I looked at many styles and colors of boots, but the yellow ones made me happy 🙂 .  So… Rain, give it your best shot!!!  I am ready for you!!! (Plus, I will look stylish dodging rain drops!)

My Awesome Rainboots!!

My Awesome Rainboots!!

Subject #2

Weekday 12 of no daytime television.  I am on a roll!  This morning I went to the high school (Subject #3), came home, took a nap, planted my herbs, took another nap, am blogging and plan to start supper soon.  Last week I finished a bracelet for my sweet niece, Kristi Brinklie (Really!!  Her last name is Olsavsky). She liked it.  I am very happy with the finished product.  I used one of my wire-worked hearts.

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Subject #3

MelodyeJoy – 2  Social Anxiety (SA) – 0

I have spoken about my struggle with social anxiety.  I am working so hard to “behave my way” through it.

Last week, my friend Michelle and her group, New Journey, were singing at EBC.  I really wanted to hear them.  I waffled throughout the week.  On Thursday, I made it Facebook official.  I was going!!  I ran one errand before heading to the church.  I started panicking when I hit the Elton Road exit.  I kept driving… I parked… I pulled out my rollator… Michelle’s sweet hubby, the V man, met me at the door with a big hug.  I am so glad I went to hear them.  They blessed my heart.

Some of you know that I was the accompanist for the Central Cambria School District for 12 years until 2009.  What was later diagnosed as trigeminal neuralgia, made it necessary for me to “retire.”  I have not been back to a concert, at first, because I was so very sad that I had to stop doing something I loved.  Then this stupid SA reared its ugly head rendering me helpless to even attempt to go.  Two weeks ago I texted Paul, (the director and a wonderful friend) and asked if I could attend the double-period rehearsal the day of the concert. He said yes and to text him Monday to remind him to tell the office I was coming… Monday… every time I started to text, I couldn’t.  I promise you this is a real feeling.  Unless it has happened to you, it will make no sense at all to you!!

Finally, I figured he was home from school and couldn’t tell the office I was coming so I texted him, apologizing for not texting earlier, but not telling him the whys of it.  His answer to me was “No worries!!  It will be chaos but I would love to see you!!”

I set my alarm for 7:15 a.m. and, fortifying myself with coffee, dressing to the “nines” with my new Toms and my favorite Isaac Mizrahi scarf (and my goodwill jeans), I went to the school.  I spent two hours listening to wonderful music and talking to two of my favorite friends, Paul and Tom (Tom now accompanies the choirs). Again, I am so happy I went!!

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Tom, Me and Paul Graduation-2004

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Paul, Tom and Me One of our themed concerts (I re-made my sweatshirt)

I am feeling more confident that I can win this social anxiety battle!!

 

 

 

 

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Tuesday-Shoesday

May 6, 2014 at 5:22 pm (Shoes)

I  bought my very first pair of Toms!!  I wanted the pink glittery ones, but felt that might be a bit too much of… everything.  I followed my cousin, Sara’s advice and ordered them 1/2 size smaller.  They are beautiful!!  I cannot wait to wear them!!

Perfectly pink

Perfectly pink

For real Toms!

For real Toms!

Side view -- love the soles!

Side view — love the soles!

Shoes make me smile!!

Shoes make me smile!!

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Shopping My Closet

January 28, 2014 at 4:14 pm (Jewelry, Musings..., Shoes)

What does one do when one has trigeminal neuralgia and the wind chill temperatures are -10 to -25??  One keeps her tushy parked in her warm home.

Now, I could have done a lot of things today, like, say, cleaned my art room, but I had to wash my hair and I decided to do something fun. I’d “shop” my closet.  I have clothes from size 6 to 10.  Right now I am an 8.  I like to wear black… and more black.  But, I thought I’d look through my closets and put some outfits together.

Since I am being honest… {{big gulp}} this is a “before shot.” In my defense, my face has moisturizer slathered all over it — one of my habits to keep my skin looking young.  You can see the wrinkles and circles under my eyes but I’ve earned all of them in my 54 years of living!!

Yikes!!!  Warts and all :-)

Yikes!!! Warts and all 🙂

Thirty minutes later…

It takes a village, people!!!

It takes a village, people!!!

The jeans I am wearing in most of these pictures are Michael Kors black straight jeans that I got at TJ Maxx.  I really love the way they fit.

Outfit #1:  Blouse-Iman (HSN), Jeans-Michael Kors, Pumps-Nine West,  Belt-Amazon. I made the jewelry

Outfit #1

Outfit #1

Outfit #2 — I untucked the blouse and added a Gap jacket (given to me) and my Big Buddha purse I got for $15 at TJ’s. I also added a longer necklace I made.

Outfit #2

Outfit #2

Outfit #3:  Sweater-Denim & Co (QVC), Belt-Amazon, Necklace-vintage

Outfit #3

Outfit #3

Outfit #4  Shawl Sweater-gift from Amanda,  Belt-TJ Maxx. Shoes-Sole Society, Necklace-gift from my sister, Heather, Earrings-made by me 🙂

Outfit #4

Outfit #4

Outfit #5:  Blouse-Ann Taylor (Goodwill for $4.99), Shoes-Big Buddha

Outfit #5

Outfit #5

Outfit #6:  Dress-Loft, Shoes-Franco Sarto, Belt-Amazon

I just added my vintage curly mink coat for fun

I just added my vintage curly mink coat for fun

Outfit #6

Outfit #6

 Jacket-made by me, Scarf-Isaac Mizrahi(QVC), Shoes-Jessica Simpson — Outfit #7

Outfit #7

Outfit #7

THIS is how I usually dress — all in black – Danskin tights, Gap jacket (given to me) and a black cami, my UGGs,  with a beanie,  sunglasses and no make-up but lipstick 😀

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I LOVE MY BOOTS — UGGs — a gift from my darling DannyO.  He gets an “A.”

Well, the next time I go out, I will have a few outfits already put together.  Not a bad project for a cold Tuesday afternoon!!

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Stepping Out Of The Circle

August 30, 2012 at 6:50 pm (Jewelry, Multiple Sclerosis, Shoes, Trigeminal Neuralgia)

Amanda and Hengyi — the day of their wedding reception hosted by Hengyi’s parents in China.

I last blogged on July 28 — I promise, truly I promise, to blog more than once a month.  It is so hard sometimes to blog when you are struggling — with pain mostly!  My MS has been so bad that I feared I would need to begin to use a wheelchair.  My trigeminal neuralgia pain has been off the charts.  I can’t seem to get a handle on it and every day has been a struggle.  I don’t want to be a blogger who complains, without hope.  Truly, though, I have had some moments of despair.  So… I neglect my blog.

At the same time, I was feeling intense pressure… (follow, if you can, my bouncing brain)… I have so many creative gifts so I feel I must create.  I must create, but I cannot create because just functioning takes all of my energy so I feel like a failure because I cannot create because I have the God-given ability to create so I must create…  I can paint so I must paint but I can’t paint so I must be a failure.  If I could just paint, but I can’t paint…  I can create jewelry, so I must create jewelry, but I cannot create jewelry so I must be a failure.  If I could just create jewelry, but I can’t create jewelry…  I can sew so I must sew but I can’t sew so I must be a failure.  If I could just sew, but I can’t sew… See the vicious circles???

I talked to my “therapist.”  I say that loosely because my therapist happens to be my best friend, Juel.  I called her about 3 weeks ago and said, “Put on your therapist hat for a few moments.”  She listened and asked a few questions and I came to the realization that I have “circular thinking.”  OCD probably has a lot to do with it, but nevertheless my brain works in circles.  She led me to the conclusion that I must, with purpose, step out of the circle.

So I stepped out of the circle.  My art studio is clean and ready for me to create, but I haven’t stepped into the room.  I went to the library and meandered, looking at authors I’ve never considered.  I found an author, Mercedes Lackey — I can’t put her books down!  I am reading like I used to read… walking around with a book while I do my daily chores, stopping only when I must and when my eyes become too fatigued to focus.  I have a book by my bed so when I have insomnia or when pain becomes acute and I cannot sleep — I read.  I am re-reading my library of art books and jewelry books.

One of the series I am reading

Oh, and I also bought a pair of shoes for Fall/Winter!  No one can ever have too many pairs of shoes!

Awesome shoes with a little bling 🙂

So, I will step back into the circle soon, but I am not giving myself a time limit (although THAT goes against everything that is OCD in my brain!)  I can feel myself becoming renewed again.  I just was walking through the living room today and had an idea for rearranging/repurposing some of the furniture in the room.  My brain has run in so many circles that I haven’t been able to solve the spatial problem of the current furniture arrangement!

My spirit will know when it is time to step back in… I will be renewed, refreshed and reinvigorated.  I made a cup of tea this evening and will probably stay up WAY too late to finish my book.

Until it is time for me to step back into the circle, as Grammy used to say… “It will be otay.”

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Tuesday ~~ Shoesday

January 10, 2012 at 10:01 am (Shoes)

My darling hubby (ummmm… Amanda, really) got these for me for Christmas.  I L-O-V-E them!

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